DANGEROUSLY ADDICTIVE.

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observation de vous;

observation de moi
on isolé tiennent le premier rôle
vous ne savez pas qui vous êtes
j'ai vous ai toujours aimé
mais vous avez pris mon amour pour accordé
parole au revoir

the 4 hearts

Saturday, September 30, 2006

in one of the weirdest moods now. feeling so EMO. stupid. hate this stupid world. with all the stupid things. and the stupid people.

and the boyfriend's not doing anything to make it better. stupid. refusal to reply any messages.

so not looking forward to travelling tomorrow. oh fuck.

i hate this life i'm living.

can't wait for korea on the 9th. oh baby, let it SNOW!

then i shall indulge in the weather -- my lovely bittersweet weather. and escape into the blurring of illusion and reality.

i need a new life, a new place, a new someone who can make me smile.

- everything's just temporary;
11:43 PM

Thursday, September 28, 2006

i thought i lost my wallet again. thank God!. (: and thank you to these dear people -- maz, ben, syafiq, fauzie for your help!. i appreciate it! (: (: (:

i saw huangen today too!. OBVIOUSLY i remember you! omg. yayy! he looks so much better with his present hair style. (: hahas. funny senior.

i keep thinking that something might go wrong before the new day. i keep thinking that some awful thing might happen. deaths. and they say if you dream about it means you're letting some part of you go. is it true?

i need a drink. ...HARRY'S; you never fail to make my heart swell. (:

I make it alone

When love is gone

Still you made your mark

Here in my heart

One day I'll fly away

Leave your love to yesterday

What more can your love do for me

When will love be through with me

I follow the night

Can't stand the light

When will I begin

My life again

Why live life from dream to dream

And dread the day that dreaming ends

ro, krys and my birthday's in 15 days! note.. (:

presents i wanna receive: (see, i spare people the trouble)

- loads of hugs and kisses.

- sponsors for my clubbing trips till the end of the year.

- a trip back to US. omg!

- anyone for a bacardi neat? (:

- sweeeeeeet and sexy lingerie.

- GUESS vouchers and that new watch!

- ang baos with LOADSA cold, hard, cash. i love money!

- dance classes sponsors!

- dance partner? hmmm. tall, dark, handsome (preferably).

things NOT appreciated:

- ***s

- chin

- anything to do with the bad past

- everything's just temporary;
2:44 PM

Tuesday, September 26, 2006

i talked with her. and i heard her say some things i wished i never heard. i never thought i'd ever share the same sentiments about someone with her. but now that i know it, oh shucks. i feel this sense of jealousy? nonono. i can't feel this way. i love her!. she's real great and all. truly. ... but i can't help it..

because there's nowhere for me to hide since you pushed my love aside. oh curse this someone who's got me all messed up!

Had a drive
Driven by your love
But when you messed around
I lost the drive I found

Thought you needed
Needed someone true
But you changed your mind
Or had I failed you?

Wish you'd been
Careful with my heart
But you tore it apart
And broke an angel's heart

The kiss was true
Has to end somehow
But I am living proof of what love is about

It's hard holding you
Loving you, losing you
It's sad to be true
And be fooled by you
I don't know (I don't know)
I gotta know
Should I stay or should I go?

You played me on
Played me like a clown
But I feel for you
Even though I'm down

My heart is heavy
Heavy like a rock
But I am so amused
You're still in my thoughts

This time its done
It'll never feel the same
But we had some good times
Guess it's sad just the same

I guess the truth
Doesn't matter somehow
But you were living proof of what love is about...

im hopelessly devoted to him aren't i? even after all this time.

- everything's just temporary;
4:33 PM

Sunday, September 24, 2006

so if you are reading this. i can't believe she called. you should just clear things up with her. then she messaged. i'm sorry, she's totally irritating me. so you see why you no longer get any replies to your messages. i deleted your number off my phone, and i deleted your contact off my msn. and if she starts her nonsense again, i'm not going to be nice. so do us a favour, either shut her up or leave me alone. i don't miss you. i don't. wow. she makes me know more about you and you make alan some kind of greek god. loll. you're pathetic.

so the boyfriend ruins the day again but makes it up. always. somehow. it was brill just holding hands walking down the never ending lane. just somehow so comforting. and talking about the past like nothing ever happened. i felt a load of weight totally lifted. i saw amos yesterday and i didn't feel anything. just a few random reminiscing thoughts but truly, i felt happy though, i was with alan. (: and it was such a beautiful feeling. what touched me most i suppose was his wondering if i were okay. so to the nesh: nah, don't think it'll ever happen.

yu've the purest soul.

so to everyone out there, i'm sorry to say, we (alan and i) are not anywhere close to breaking up. (: ask back after christmas or so eys.

okay. so had a 4 hour 'boating' session with the girls. lovelies. was awesome being back in the sea. and uncle jeffery gave us jobs. (: wonderful. all the gossiping and stuff. wonder if in five years time we might just be meetin same place. whatever it is, i'll always remember how these people touched my boating experience and made it more than just a CCA.

met the freaks. nothing's changed. they're all the same fabulous sexy group. totally soaking, indulging in the frankness. (: bussed with gen and just happened to be conversing about certain stuff. i mean you learn and you teach right. guess i learnt this time. it's interesting the different perspectives i get back.

above all, i get the best dinner every with my family. it ain't the food, was just the people. i never knew what a family i had. but after that night, i can conclude they're the best. and i felt love for the first time. love at home. among us all. i'm very happy; i'm very proud of my family. (: i love all of you eys.

so just to say, that i'm really glad these 4 days after prelims have been really fruitful -- catching up with all these sincerely genuine people. and shopping to my limits too. so now i'm exhausted. but every inch happy and loved. (:

so again, no matter what. ilyu,mtyweb. and i promise yu i'll be there for yu.

- everything's just temporary;
10:12 PM

Wednesday, September 20, 2006

DAN:
I see yur face cloud over like a little girl
And yur eyes have lost their shine
You whisper something softly I'm not meant to hear
Baby tell me what's on your mind

VONDA:
I don't' care what people say
About the two of us from different worlds
I love yu so much that it hurts inside
Are yu listening

Please listen to me girl

Can't we try just a little bit harder
Can't we give just a little bit more
Can't we try to understand
That it's love we're fighting for
Can't we try just a little more passion
Can't we try just a little less pride
I love yu so much baby
That it tears me up inside

I hear yu on the telephone
With god knows who
Spilling out your heart for free
Everyone needs someone they can talk to
Girl that someone should be me

So many times I've tried to tell yu
You just turn away
How would I know
My life is changing so fast now
Leaves me lonely and afraid
Don't be afraid, no

Don't let our love fade away
No matter what people say
No matter, no matter what they say
I need yu more and more each day

- everything's just temporary;
11:20 AM

Tuesday, September 19, 2006

one more paper. and then...
devil wears prada. (:
john tucker must die. (: (:
zara tube and spags. (: (: (:

TANNING. omg. im like some white chicken.! please please don't let it rain this weekend!

maybe it isn't so bad after all; but i do need to get away.

SAVA SPRINTS this saturday and sunday at bedok reservoir! (:

im erasing you. everything about you. all that friday rendevouz affair. it never happened. she doesn't trust you. i don't understand why you trust her so. shrugs. it doesn't matter though. (: i don't have your number, i've deleted your contact off my msn. i'll probably just meet you again where i first met you; familiar stranger.

- everything's just temporary;
1:36 PM

Thursday, September 07, 2006

been catching this ultimately drama show on channel U. some 1900h show. wtf. me and chinese shows. ha. lovely best friends. TSK. i swear it must be the stress. faints.

so my sisters are out at the movies. and where am i? . pfft. so i finally completed the unbelievably impossible. and i thought i was never going to finish it. (: arw. mel's the best. rolls eyes.

decided to get for rese torres or kaka's jersey. (: im prepared to go broke for her. what a lovely sister she has. ho. i remembered ---- and the present from both of them. my first ever. (:

seriously, my mind's really going bonkers.
BACARDI PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE.
well at least it will take away some awful stuffs that's been happening recently.

i miss a---, i miss ballack, and i miss christmas. but i miss the states most. i really need to go back to US man. its awesome. funny how i didn't really like it back then but i'm totally missing it now. the weather, the people, the life, the atmosphere. everything. bring me back to the states please. let me stay there always. .

okay marcus chin, you should start talking to me. please.
and to my dearest godbrotherS. see the S luke kor. sly smile. i miss you both tons. shall visit the irishpub as soon as my prelims are done. promises.

This is got to be the saddest day of my life
I call you here today for a bit of bad news
I wont be able to see you anymore
Because of my obligations and the ties that you have.
We've being meeting here everyday
And since this is our last day together
I wanna hold you, just one more time.
When you turn and walk away
Dont look back
I wanna remember you, just like this
Lets just kiss and say goodbye.

I have to meet you here today
Theres just so many things to say
Please dont stop me till I'm through
This is something I hate to do.

We've being meeting here so long
I guess what we've done, all was wrong
Please darling, dont you cry
Lets just kiss and say goodbye.

Many months have passed us by
I'm gonna miss you, I cant lie
I've got ties and so do you
I just think this is the thing to do.

Its gonna hurt me I cant lie
Maybe you'll meet, you'll meet another [girl]
Understand me, wont you try, try, try, try, try, try, try
Lets just kiss and say goodbye.

- everything's just temporary;
11:38 PM

Sunday, September 03, 2006

so the boyfriend. or boy friend. or whatever you choose to call it. somehow we seem sad, yet happy. i don't know much about what actually happened. but i do love him. oh yes, tough time saying you don't when deep down you do. something black once said about crying and smiling i THINK and how hard it was? . chinese. tsk.

missing national day. like how we spent the whole time in bed. just wasting the night away snuggling up. maybe somehow wished that there could have been much more to it than just that. hmms.
missing yu. want yu here with me now.

oh. guess what. mom just asked me to sit for my SATS today. omgomg.

- everything's just temporary;
12:08 AM

Friday, September 01, 2006

we live, to die. we smile, to cry. we love, to be brokenhearted.
we lie, to seek the truth.

Unforgettable, thats what yu are
Unforgettable though near or far
Like a song of love that clings to me
How the thought of yu does things to me
Never before has someone been more

Unforgettable in every way
And forever more, thats how yu'll stay
Thats why, darling, its incredible
That someone so unforgettable
Thinks that I am unforgettable too

unbelievably unforgettable.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BEN! (: (: (:

- everything's just temporary;
1:38 PM